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An Anomaly

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So about a week ago my visitors and views suddenly spiked. As you can see in the picture above on July 24th I got 206 visitors and 432 views. Over the next couple of days the number of visitors/views drops back down. What’s interesting is that all of the views and visitors were on my post “it’s not about the nail.” Based on the stats page for that day it looks like this was caused by someone liking it on Facebook and someone emailing it to friends. Anyway I share this as a example of what can happen when someone who is the center of a social network shares something online.

I am 100% positive that this is just an anomaly as the average number of views on my other posts hasn’t gone up at all.

-Roland K


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Julie Taymor and other creative minds share how they start their incredibly unique works

Lessons in creativity from the masters.
-Roland k

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Julie Taymor, the director behind Frida, Across the Universe and the Broadway reimagining of The Lion King, creates productions that tickle the senses. Filled with saturated colors, offbeat imagery, stacatto movement and big sound — each of her productions shares her unique style, yet manages to be completely distinct.

[ted_talkteaser id=1801]In today’s talk, Taymor shares with raw honesty the creative struggle that goes into each of her works, including the super-sized Broadway musical Spider-Man: Turn Off the Dark. Given just before Taymor split from the production over creative direction, she reveals what she was hoping to achieve with the play — a “comic book coming alive” in three dimensions all around the audience.

But perhaps even more interestingly for any creative person, Taymor describes in this talk how she begins each project.

“I start with the notion of the ideograph,” she explains. “An ideograph is a Japanese…

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The Battle of The Heart

The heart is a mysterious thing. Figuring out the things we want in life can be hard. Whether it’s where we want to go to school, what kind of career we want to pursue, or what kind of person we want to marry. For some people these kind of questions are easy to answer. For most people however, answering the “BIG” life questions of school, career, and marriage isn’t as easy as one two three.
As I am finishing up my college degree and entering the next stage of my life. I am asking myself questions like “what kind of career do I want to pursue?” or “What am I looking for in a wife?” And to be honest I haven’t figured out the answers to those questions. However, two years ago I thought I had it all figured out.

It was my senior year of high school and I was at the top of my game, metaphorically speaking. I was extremely active in my churches youth group. I knew what I wanted to do after high school in terms of college. I was also planning on asking the girl of my dreams out at the end of the year. However, little did I know that I was in for a major crash and burn experience.

Broken heart symbol

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The first blow came when I asked the girl I liked out. Turned out that it was to little to late. She had meet a another guy and they had just started dating. The second blow came a couple of weeks later, when I found out that the cost of tuition at the media school I was planning on attending had basically doubled due to the school having built a brand new facility. The third and final blow came several months later when I had a major disagreement with my churches youth pastor. As each event happened I fell deeper and deeper into a depressed funk. I couldn’t figure out what happened! I had everything planned out and yet in a few short months everything I had planned fell apart. It wasn’t until last fall that the funk finally started to lift.

As I look back at the fourteen or so months after high school and the events that took place during that time. I have realized that each event taught me something different about myself and how I relate to others. Getting rejected by the girl of my “dreams” showed me that I wasn’t as ready for a committed long term relationship as I thought. The cost of tuition in the school I was planning on attending getting doubled showed me that I wasn’t as flexible with unexpected circumstances as I thought, and made me rethink my priorities on my education. The disagreement with my youth pastor showed me that I had a lot of unforgiveness and pride in my life.

During my Senior year of high school I knew what I wanted in life. However, hindsight being what it is I have come to realize that I really didn’t know what I wanted out of life back then, and the truth is I still don’t know entirely what I want out of life. Which is odd considering that I am writing a blog about living life to the fullest.

I bring up my sorry sob story to make a point. It’s a given that throughout life we are going to experience heartbreak, and we have no control over it. What we do have control over is how we respond to the heartbreak that we experience. I responded poorly to the heart break I experienced at the end of my senior year of high school. So I want to leave you with this question to ponder. How will you respond to heart break when it comes your way?

“The battle with the heart isn’t easily won. But it can be won.” -Ingrid Michaelson

-Roland K

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The Elephant in the Room

English: A female African Bush Elephant in Mik...

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It was a night like any other night at my guys bible study. It started with the normal talking and catching up, waiting for the rest of the guys to show up. Followed by prayer requests once every one had arrived. After we had finished praying we shared about what was going on in our lives and how God was growing us. Now I don’t remember what everybody shared that night. However, I do remember one thing from that particular night that has stuck with me.

One of the guys started sharing about what was going on in his life and what God had been teaching him. As he was finishing up he almost broke down in tears as he started sharing about how he was having a hard time watching his brother go through something that he had previously gone through as well. After he was done sharing the first thing to pop into my head was that his younger brother was struggling with pornography.

The reason I thought this, was because when he started sharing he was very specific about what was going on in his life, but as he started sharing about his brother he became very vague and evasive about it and he gave off the vibe that he didn’t want to be questioned further on the subject. After he was done we all nodded and expressed our sympathy for him and his brother. Then next guy started sharing.

Now the story above is a couple years old, and I am sharing to make a point. I think you’ll agree with me when I say that there was an elephant in the room that night. In this case it was at least one possibly two brothers struggling with pornography, and nobody called it what it was. This wasn’t the only time I have seen this happen. I saw this rather frequently in my churches youth group. Whenever a group of guys would circle up to discuss our struggles some one would almost always say something along the lines of struggling with lust or pornography but they wouldn’t say it. I am not innocent either. I would skip around the issue and I would avoid ever saying anything about the issue of lust.

But it’s not just guys who I’ve seen doing this, I’ve seen girls do this as well. I’ve also seen it done with other struggles and/or topics besides something as “awkward” as pornography or lust. One of the reasons for this is because I think as Christians we want to have it all together and the truth of the matter is we don’t. So we stick to vague and general when we talk about our struggles. But when we stick to vague and general we are selling ourselves and those around us short. We end up limiting the way people can help and pray for us. Granted there are times and situations when you need to be vague and general when sharing your struggles with a group of people.

Something that I have been learning recently is that when you call something what it is. It loses a sense of mystery and power. For example if you struggle with lust, when you share with someone you respect and who will keep you accountable that you are struggling with lust. Lust loses part of its hold on you because you called it what it was and brought it into the light of truth. Now if you shared with that same person that you were struggling, but you kept it vague and general. Lust would still have the same hold on you as before.

Now, In the story I shared above. My friend who was sharing may not have been struggling with pornography, it could have been something else. However, because he was vague the rest of the guys in the group couldn’t help or pray specifically for him. He was selling himself short of the help and support the rest of group could give him.

So my challenge to you dear reader is to start calling things what they are. It’s time for that elephant in your life to be called a elephant.

-Roland K

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When Life Gives You Lemons, Make Waffles!

The above video is possibly one of the greatest rants ever! If you’re wondering, the rant is from the video game Portal 2. But I digress. The saying “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.” Has been around for awhile, and it seems to be ingrained into our culture. Most people have heard the saying or some variation of it.

English: Yellow lemons.

English: Yellow lemons. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Wikipedia says that the saying “‘When life gives you lemons, make lemonade‘ is a proverbial phrase used to encourage optimism and a can-do attitude in the face of adversity or misfortune. ‘Lemons’ In this expression is used in the informal sense of the word, to indicate an unfortunate or inadequate situation, a meaning which probably stems from the sour and acidic taste of unsweetened lemon. ‘Lemonade’ on the other hand, is a sweetened form of this same acerbic fruit, and so in the context of this expression, conveys the potential for pleasure and opportunity in seemingly bad situations.”
Now the saying “When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.” Is a excellent saying and a good reminder that bad situations can be turned around into good situations. However it’s not perfect, there’s a danger of sticking with something well past when it should have been dropped. With that said I want to pose the idea that “when life gives you lemons, make waffles.” What do I mean by that statement? There are some “lemons” or negative/bad situations in life that no matter how hard we persevere and try to make “lemonade” we still won’t make lemonade. So my idea of making waffles basically means that you drop the lemon and you go and do something radically different.

English: Crispy Waffles.

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In other words, instead of trying to turn a bad situation into a good situation. You go and look for a different situation altogether. For example, say a girl is stuck in bad relationship with her boyfriend. If she followed the “make lemonade” idea and stuck with it, persevered, and tried to make the relationship work she would just be hurting herself in the long run. If on the other hand she realized that the relationship was bad and that there was nothing she could do to change it. She could leave the negative situation with her boyfriend and move on with her life and not get stuck trying to make “lemonade”.Now my idea “making waffles” doesn’t apply to all situations. It also doesn’t mean that you never go back to the lemon, but there will be times that you never go back. There also will be times when you will be able to turn a bad situation into good situation. Basically what I am trying to say is that when life gives you lemons take a step back go do something else and then later go back and see if you can make lemonade out of that lemon.
So the next time life gives you lemons. Be radical and go make waffles!!!

-Roland K

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About those Ads

So a couple days ago I posted about how WordPress had put ads at the end of my posts. Anyway it looks like they only show up in certain web browsers. So if you don’t see the ads excellent! If you do see the ads, well you’re just going to have to live with them for now.

-Roland K


Stupid Ads

I really dislike ads, and I guess WordPress decided that I have enough traffic to warrant them placing ads at the end of my posts to cover their cost of maintaining my blog. I understand why they did it, but that doesn’t mean I have to like it. I guess it’s time for me to start thinking about upgrading to a premium account. Though personally I’d rather not go premium. Mainly because I don’t know if I want to drop $99 bucks on something that I may not be using in the future. Or I could just spend $30 and get the ads removed. But again it comes down to if I will still be writing in a year’s time. Anyway until I figure that out I’ll just have to live with the ads.

-Roland K

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Why Do We Fall?

Here’s a video that I found on YouTube a couple weeks ago. It’s a good reminder that when life knocks us down we to need to get back up and keep moving forward.

“You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done!” -Rocky Balboa

-Roland K

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Um, yeah about that….

Well… Um, yeah about that schedule I posted a couple weeks ago. As you may have noticed I haven’t been very consistent in posting stuff during the last week and a half or so. The main reason I haven’t been posting is that I’ve been working in central Oregon on my parent’s Ranch. With that said I have decided to not stick to a set schedule. I will be trying to posting something every day but it won’t necessarily be the category that I previously had scheduled for that day. I’ll keep most of the categories that I have I just won’t be using them in conjunction any more with my original schedule. Also this week I am going to be working at the Ranch again, so I may or may not be posting anything this week.

-Roland Kuenzi

P.S I’ll try and post some pics of the Ranch  at some point this week.

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Finding Your Voice

We all have a voice. We all have something to say. Yet how many people go through life without saying anything? Most people will keep quite and not say anything. Letting those who they think are better speakers do the speaking for them.

Six months ago if you told me that I would be writing a blog I would have laughed at you! I never considered myself a writer until about two months ago when I discovered my voice. Ironically I discovered my voice when I was working on a school project for one of three online classes I was taking at the time. Each of the classes I took involved a fair amount of writing. Writing has never been a strong point of mine, my hand writing is horrendous, and my spelling and grammar are okay. Spell check is probably one of the most useful inventions since the wheel, sliced bread, and the light bulb. But I digress. In the middle of my classes I discovered that I enjoy writing! More specifically I enjoy writing when I am distilling information and/or presenting my thoughts on a given topic or idea.


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Now I have a mild form of something called dysgraphia. It’s like dyslexia but instead of having trouble reading I have trouble with writing things down on paper. Because of this my Mom basically gave up trying to get me write anything when I was about ten, whenever she tried to get me to write anything it was a struggle for me. Due to my dysgraphia I also struggled with spelling and grammar. Though as I have gotten older my dysgraphia has lessened, and my spelling and grammar have improved exponential, though my hand writing is still horrendous. Because of my dysgraphia I had never thought writing for fun! So for me it came as a shock when I discovered that I could write and write semi well, at least I think so.

I have to give credit to my Mom for putting up with me and my siblings. Each one of us have different learning strengths and weaknesses. For example one of my sisters is a genius when it comes to writing. She intuitively knows what the problem is with a sentence or paragraph. But on the flip side she is terrible with math. Don’t ask her to do anything harder than basic arithmetic and even that is hard for her. Or take my brother. He’s a wiz when it comes to building things, he sees an object in his head and he will be able to reproduce it in some shape or form. But he also has dyslexia and all of the struggles associated with it. Because of my siblings and my own differing learning styles my Mom has over the years been able to help out other homeschooling moms as they have struggled with their own kids learning strengths and weaknesses. Over the years my Mom and to some extent my Dad have helped me and my siblings find our individual voices.

So why am I sharing the story of my struggle with dysgraphia? I share it as a way to highlight the fact that we all have a voice we just need to find it. The cool part is that we all have a different voice. Both in terms of what we say and how we say it. I found my voice doing the very thing I loathed!

Your voice will be different than mine. It could take the form of photography, making music, writing a blog, or even making YouTube videos. The possibilities are endless! Whatever it is it will be unique to you! So now go and find your voice! Who knows you might surprise yourself!

“Words mean more than what is set down on paper. It takes the human voice to infuse them with deeper meaning.” – Maya Angelou

-Roland K