I Lived Fully

Living Life to the Full

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Gone, Gone, Gone

Life has been crazy for the past couple of weeks. I have been working crazy long hours at the ranch. My work hours are going to continue to be crazy for the about the next three weeks or so. When I have been home I’ve been busy with personal stuff. Hence why I haven’t posted anything for the past couple of weeks.
Also I’ve been working with a friend of mine on a project. I’ll be sharing more details about it in the coming weeks. Along with a formal announcement when the project is ready to be shared with the world.

Any way here’s a music video for your viewing pleasure.

-Roland K


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In about two hours I am going to be at a One Republic concert. Now you might be wondering what the music video for Uncharted has to do with a One Republic concert. Well, two things actually. First, Sara Bareilles is playing with One Republic. The second thing is that metaphorically speaking I am standing at the edge of a cliff and it’s time to take a leap of faith. I have no idea what the future will hold it’s Uncharted and it’s time to throw logic out the window. So here goes nothing, CANNONBALL!!!

-Roland K


Pictures of The Ranch

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So I finally got around to uploading some of the pictures of my families ranch, enjoy!!!

The pictures of the buildings are from before we bought the ranch. Most of the weeds in the pictures are now gone.

I took these pictures when we moved some of our heifers from our dairy in the Willamette Valley to the ranch in central Oregon.

All of the winter pictures were taken with my dad’s iphone last fall/winter.

Pictures don’t do the ranch justice. It’s about 1,200 acres total so it’s a little overwhelming when you first visit. There’s a whole lot more to see of the ranch and I am planning on posting more pictures in the future.

-Roland K

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INSEPARABLE – starring Benedict Cumberbatch and Nathalie Press

I found this short film the other day when I was looking at Vimeo staff picks. It tells an incredibly moving story about two brothers and second chances. I won’t give away more than that. You’ll have to watch the short film for the rest of the story. Suffice it to say that it’s an extraordinary piece of acting by Benedict Cumberbatch.

-Roland K

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Make It Count

It’s a fact, you and I are going to die. We may not like thinking about it but it’s the truth. While we know that some day we are going to die. We don’t know when, where, or how we are going to die. You and I could die today, tomorrow, or seventy years from now.

Every once in a while it’s a good idea to ask ourselves questions like “If I died tomorrow, would I have any regrets?” or “If I only had twenty four hours left live how would I spend them?” In reality how often do we actually ask ourselves those kind of questions and live like today could be our last day here on this little blue orb called earth? If all we have is today. Shouldn’t we make it count for something worthwhile?

-Roland K


Tired and Worn

Ever feel tried or worn? If so then this video is for you!!!

The above video is one of my personal favorite songs and music videos. Most of the songs that Tenth Avenue North writes are reminders of the God who loves us and of his unending grace and mercy and how we should respond to that grace and mercy.

-Roland K

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Why Do We Fall?

Here’s a video that I found on YouTube a couple weeks ago. It’s a good reminder that when life knocks us down we to need to get back up and keep moving forward.

“You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done!” -Rocky Balboa

-Roland K

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What is Fear?

What is Fear? What causes it and where does it come from? The Ox-ford dictionary defines fear as “an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm. A feeling of anxiety concerning the outcome of something or the safety of someone.” In some cases fear is caused by our fight or flight response. For example, being chased by an angry bear is going to induce some fear. However, fear is much more complex than just our fight or flight response. We fear things that we shouldn’t be afraid of.

A couple weeks ago I saw the movie After Earth with a friend of mine. There is a point in the movie when Cypher Raige, played by Will Smith, says to his son “Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist.”

If you asked my friends if I was a fearful person. Most of them would probably say “no”. However the truth is much different, and much more complex. In general I am not a fearful person, I have almost no phobias and it takes a lot to spook me. However, I tend to over think the future and what it holds. This causes me to worry and be fearful of something that hasn’t happened yet. For example two weeks ago my dog, Jake, was in a lot of pain due to having tweaked his back. He’s doing much better now, but during the worst part of the whole ordeal I was thinking to myself “is this it? Are we going to have to put him under?” Now Jake is about twelve so he is getting up there in dog years, and hopefully he’ll be around for a couple more years. Jake is also doing much better now that he’s on a pain killer/anti-inflammatory medication.
So why do I share this story? I use it to highlight the fact that I was thinking, worrying, and stressing over a future that I had no control over. This is the type of fear that I struggle the most with. But it isn’t just minor things like my dogs health. I am fearful of things like who am I going marry or what kind of career am I going to pursue. For me fear is worrying about something that hasn’t yet happened. The cause of that kind of fear is the fact that the future is in a sense a fantasy or in other words it’s a lie! But you don’t have to take my word for it. In the video below Mike Donehey the lead singer of Tenth Avenue North does an excellent job explaining fear.

So if fear is “the consequence of every lie.” How should we respond to it? Ralph Waldo Emerson once said that if you “Do the thing you fear and the death of fear is certain.” But, is that the correct response to fear?  The answer I think is yes. When we do the thing we fear, it’s hold over us lessens.

Now you may be thinking to yourself “Hold on! Timeout! What about the fear of something I have no control over?” Well there are ways to control that too. For example, say you are fearful of an unexpected financial emergence, like a family member falling sick. Well in that case start putting some money aside in a emergence fund so that you can respond to unexpected financial emergencies. Now my example is a little simplistic, but hopefully it conveys my point. If you are afraid of something happening, go and do something about it!

When we do the thing we fear, we counteract the lie that caused the fear. We see that fear is nothing more than a mist that vanishes in the light of the sun. So the question remains. What do you fear and what are you going to do it?

“avoid fear, though fear is simply the consequence of every lie.” -Fyodor Dostoyevsky
-Roland K

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It Couldn’t Be Done

The following is one of my favorite poems. It’s a excellent reminder to do the things that people say can’t be be done. At the end I posted the Audi commercial that used the poem for narration.

In other news I still have no idea what I should be posting on Sundays, so I posted this poem instead. Also I am headed back to work at my family’s ranch tomorrow so I probably won’t be posting anything for the next couple of days. Anyway on to the poem!

It Couldn’t Be Done

By Edgar Albert Guest

Somebody said that it couldn’t be done
      But he with a chuckle replied
That “maybe it couldn’t,” but he would be one
      Who wouldn’t say so till he’d tried.
So he buckled right in with the trace of a grin
      On his face. If he worried he hid it.
He started to sing as he tackled the thing
      That couldn’t be done, and he did it!
Somebody scoffed: “Oh, you’ll never do that;
      At least no one ever has done it;”
But he took off his coat and he took off his hat
      And the first thing we knew he’d begun it.
With a lift of his chin and a bit of a grin,
      Without any doubting or quiddit,
He started to sing as he tackled the thing
      That couldn’t be done, and he did it.
There are thousands to tell you it cannot be done,
      There are thousands to prophesy failure,
There are thousands to point out to you one by one,
      The dangers that wait to assail you.
But just buckle in with a bit of a grin,
      Just take off your coat and go to it;
Just start in to sing as you tackle the thing
      That “cannot be done,” and you’ll do it.
-Roland K

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Star’s End

A couple days ago I finished reading Star’s End the third book in the Starfishers trilogy by Glen Cook. If you like realistic science fiction you’ll like the Starfishers trilogy. If you like galaxy spanning Space opera’s you’ll probably like the Starfishers trilogy. The main characters are unique and believable. Some of the plot twists catch you off guard and you are often left wondering what will happen next. The Starfishers trilogy is definitely one of my favorite book series.

-Roland Kuenzi